Arghhhh!

I stayed up late doing a bit of work and then fell asleep about 1120pm. I checked your flight and it said you would be landing about 1144pm my time. I woke up intermittently and checked my phone to see if my messages had been delivered. When it got to about 1am i started to worry. I turned on the computer to check your flight and it had landed as expected. At first i thought you might not have turned on your phone but then i sort of knew you would have so thought maybe your battery had gone. Then i realised you wouldn't have had it turned on so again discounted that. Then i had the awful realisation that maybe you couldn't get a signal. I couldn't sleep and then at just after 2am my phone rang whilst it was in my hand and it was tempting to answer but i wouldn't have been able to speak so i let it go to voicemail. You sounded so helpless and i knew as soon as you spoke that the worst possible thing had happened and there were no signals. After that i couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned for what seemed like hours and it must have been 4am before i fell asleep so as you can guess i feel a bit shit this morning. My stomach has done nothing but churn since i heard your message. I feel sick, i feel upset. I don't like feeling like this at all. It's as if someone has died and i don't know how to control it. After dropping C off i was just going to go home and lay on the sofa watching TV but i knew i would just get myself worked up so i went into town to the A******* and hoped that maybe it would take my mind off things. You have no idea how much you mean to me and how very much i love you!